Tongue-tied

I’ve always hated talking about my writing. Pretty weird for someone who wants to make a living as a novelist–I know. But it’s not that I necessarily hate sharing my writing. I don’t mind people reading it. It’s easier when there’s an element of anonymity, of course; I didn’t have much problem submitting query letters or even sending out my manuscript because there was the reassurance that I didn’t know these people, and they didn’t know me, and even if they thought my writing stank, well, it’s not like they’d ever be able to humiliate me in person about it.

No, my problem is that I’m terrified of talking about my writing. I have a publishing contract, and in a couple of months, for better or worse, my precious manuscript will be out there for all the wide world to see. Necessarily I need to be able to talk about it–to generate buzz and, hopefully, to build up an audience so that when my novel comes out in May it’ll become an instant international sensation, hit the New York Times bestseller list, and land a movie deal with Ridley Scott attached to direct. Right?

Well, maybe not all of that. But at least I need to be able to speak publicly about my novel without become extremely embarrassed and immediately looking for ways to change the subject. Which is what tends to happen, because I hate talking in person about my writing. I hate it when people say, blithely, “So…heard you wrote a novel. What’s it about?” Such an innocent, guileless question. But I hate it.

Some of it is probably just selfishness on my part. It’s been my manuscript for so long–my story, my characters–and now I have to let it go out into the world. I have to detach myself from it and talk about it objectively as a Novel–not as the ever-unfolding, almost organic thing that’s lived in the privacy of my own head for years. I’ve got to cut it down to a series of simple descriptors and formulae so I can answer that dreaded, dreadful question in a way that hopefully doesn’t misrepresent my creation too much. That’s hard to do, for one thing because my story isn’t really “high concept”–i.e., not describable in one succinct, juicy line–and for another because it has a life of its own in my head which refuses to be reduced to simple terms.

I don’t think that’s enough of an explanation, though. “Not wanting to misrepresent my work” doesn’t explain why I get almost physically ill when I have to talk about it. Does anyone else suffer from this kind of block? How do you overcome it? How do you get to the point of being comfortable talking about your writing?

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Worldbuilding resources

Disclaimer: this post is geared primarily towards historical-fiction writers, specifically those writing about classical antiquity–apologies for the narrow scope! ArchI’ve started putting together a master post of the most helpful online resources I’ve found in doing research for my Cymeria series, in the hopes that somewhere, somehow, someone else might also find them useful.

I’ll probably keep adding to this list as time goes on and I dig up more stuff. I’m always on the lookout for new sources, particularly if they’re on topics that don’t get a lot of attention, so feel free to comment with suggestions and additions!

Architecture

Clothing

Food/drink

Health

Transportation

Miscellaneous

Six Sentence Sunday #3

I’ve been sorely neglecting this place lately; these Six-Sentence-Sunday excerpts have pretty much been my only updates. What can I say? Between school, work, and manuscript-revising, blogging gets kind of lost in the shuffle. (So does my social life, but I digress.)

If nothing else, Six Sentence Sunday is my motivation for keeping up with revisions–it’s a handy gauge for seeing how much progress I’ve made each week. Here are another six sentences from my WIP.

Tore pushed back his chair and stood, suddenly. He came around the desk, took her by her shoulders and shook her, once, so sharply that her head jerked back, her teeth snapping together. Then he held her before him in a vice-grip so that she couldn’t turn away, couldn’t move.

“Do you think it’s easy for me, Challe? Do you think any of this has been easy for me? Do you think I wanted either of them dead?”

Blog Hop contest entry

This is my entry for the flash-fiction contest being hosted by Angela Goff, Angie Richmond, Daniel Swensen, and Lillie McFerrin. The prompt was to write 300 words or less using this photograph as inspiration:

Blog Hop contest

I interpreted “inspiration” rather loosely–I hope not too loosely! At any rate, this is my entry:

Life

They called him El Viejo, the Old One, because no one knew his real name anymore, and because he was old enough to remember the world before the Burning.

He talked about it, if anyone cared to listen. He was very old now and he got confused sometimes and Cat knew he just jumbled the stories together every which way, repeating himself, contradicting himself, mixing parts up. But it didn’t matter. She listened anyway.

She tried to picture it while he talked, all of it floating jumbled and disjointed before her mind’s eye: huge cities spinning with sights and smells, sounds and colors; streets flooded with people; sparkling ships on blue oceans; shining planes in the sky (here she tried to picture the rust-eaten hulls out in the junk yard made bright and new again). Clean white electric light against the night-chill and blackness. Food in people’s bellies, water on their tongues. Water turning the dust to black mud underfoot, and new life bursting from it.

That was always where his words took her, in the end. Not to the cities or the oceans or the skies, but to a quieter place, a smaller place–a wet green place beneath trees, a cool silver mist clinging to her skin, a breeze to lift the hair from her sweaty neck, grass and flowers pushing up between her bare toes. There’d be music. Not the brassy blaring music that Paco played from his machine sometimes. Softer music: the song of wind in the trees, the song of brook-water.

That was life, El Viejo said, talking about the old cities. And she always wanted to shake her head, and correct him, and tell him about the green place and the trees. But she didn’t, because it didn’t matter after all.

Word count: 297

Six Sentence Sunday #2

Here’s another six-sentence snippet from my current manuscript.

Tore smiled a swift, ugly smile.

“Does he mean so much to you? Moien’s son?”

There was a cold steel edge to his words. It made her draw back, doused the little flame of anger that had been flickering inside her. Had to be careful, very careful now.